As heir, Nicholas tried every possible way to please the parent. He was diligent in their studies out of obedience. He carefully carried the burdens of military service, not mankiruya not abusing the position of Crown Prince. Most of the time he spent among Guard officers - direct, primitive guys. he was good with them. Even in his speech to the end of life is captured Guards accent. M. Kshessinsky When Nicholas grew up, but it was still too early to marry his father told him to have a mistress (to wean from the habit of some). He sang it with alacrity. So there was in his life a seductive dancer Mariinsky Theatre Matilda Kshesinskaya, which he then passed from hand to hand his cousin's uncle, Grand Duke Sergei Mikhailovich (and later she went to the next Grand Duke Vladimir Alexandrovich, from whom she had a son). Her memories of "Nikki" breathe warmth woman, carefully storing the memory of first love and the short-lived happiness. But even while he was still very inexperienced young girl who is crazy in love with the future emperor, Mathilde realized that "he was not made to reign or to the role that the will of fate he will have to play."  He agreed with it not only in its organic inability to argue.